I Don't Know Why

I don’t know why
I don’t know why
I don’t know why I miss you this much

Nothing even ended clean enough to explain it
We just drifted until the space felt permanent
Yet something in me keeps reaching for the shape of you
like muscle memory that refuses to forget
I don’t know why I miss you this much

I don’t know why I miss you this much
I don’t know why I miss you this much
I don’t know why I miss you this much

Maybe it’s just the habit of almost
Maybe I miss the version of me that still believed
I don’t know why I miss you this much
I don’t know why I miss you this much

Not because of the way you laughed
Not because of the nights that almost meant something
Not because of anything I can name
and somehow that makes it worse
I don’t know why I miss you this much
I don’t know why I miss you this much
I don’t know why I miss you this much
…this much

Still searching for a reason that doesn’t exist
still carrying a weight that has no origin
still choosing the confusion over the silence
I don’t know why I miss you this much

I don’t know why
I don’t know why
I don’t know why I miss you this much
I don’t know why I miss you this much
I don’t know
why